I want to begin this entry with a huge thank you to all of you who have been praying for our girls and these adoptions! We are so blessed and feel the support. Thanks to those of you who take time and care enough to ask us how we are doing...especially since the response you get might not make you feel comfortable. Adoption is tough. Adoption is amazing. Adoption is needed.
Because of situations and changes in processes, our girls cases are stuck. In fact, we went backwards a bit. Frustrating to say the least! We know that "T's" case is waiting for a letter of approval and had been told that "B's" case was approved and find out that's not true. "B's" case is in need of, in my opinion, a ridiculous old orphanage transfer request. It's from a very long time ago and has absolutely nothing to do with her orphan status. But, none the less, is needed. So guess what!?! We get to wait some more! I'm trying hard to see some purpose as to why this is all happening and all I can come up with at this point is that God is not done working here.
Unfortunately, our girls cases aren't the only ones stuck. Many are and I feel their pain as well. I ask for prayers in softening the hearts of those in authority to write these approval letters and for the signatures required....and in a timely manner!!!!
I need to refocus often these days and remember that this is not about me. Oh, that's so hard to do! I'm human and most of all a momma! I want my girls home! It's hard to explain the complete love I have for 2 children that I've never even met. I feel like they are a part of me and our family feels incomplete. There's an unrest all the time. Always a feeling that our "someone's" are missing, even though we've never experienced life with them.
Most of all I fear for our daughters. How are they dealing with us not coming for them? We get updates every other month and that's how often they hear from us. We have 3 videos waiting for their social worker to show them right now. They are of the 7 of us and a little greeting and individuals of Todd and I showing them snow. :) They haven't had any updates from us since the end of November, since that's the last time their social worker did their assessments. That's a huge amount of time for a child! I'm going to fight and see if this time frame between communications can be shortened. I just don't want them to feel that we aren't coming for them or have changed our minds. You know how children interpret and think things are different than what they really are. Both have experienced much and they don't need more to try to handle.
I will try to update more regularly, even if there's nothing much to share. :) Thanks again for your support, it truly means so much!!